Fuck Off

Aright, Forget those other guys.

I have never talked to a boy this real before. I tell him I like him and he’s upfront, he thinks I’m cute but he doesn’t want a relationship. Okay. But what I’m used to, is the guy just stops talking. Kinda avoids me as much as possible. No, after he told me this, we talked. For hours. Then we chilled for a while at school. And just chilled. Talked a bit. I see him everyday. He is so cute. :] But then we hung out. It was a bit awkward cause my two friends didn’t know him. But I’m SURPRISED we even hung out. Most guys I ever talk to would try and say they’re busy or they can’t. But he just said straight out that yeah he wanted to chill. Then we hung out again last night. Just me and him and his friend. It was nice. We just all hung out. Just chilled. He is legit. Like real as fuck. I don’t understand how surprised I am. Like really. Omg. I don’t even know where I’m going with this. It’s kinda just a personal experience thing. Can’t really explain it. But the other guys that I like, and I hung out with, they either, wouldn’t hangout with me, or try and get in my pants fast as hell which obviously they have no respect for me and then I leave. But we just chilled. It was so nice. I like him so much. I have known him for about half a year, and we said hi and I had given him hugs. But now that I’m talking to him… I don’t know. I told him how I felt and he said, “awe that’s sweet but you’ll get over me” Its like nigga, I’m telling you this because obviously I want you to do something about it. I don’t wanna get over you. I WANT you. I don’t know. I’m just sick of trying. I’m really close to just giving up. I’m not going to lower my standards to someone I won’t be happy with. But whatever I guess…

Just another rant. I’m going to the gym in a bit. I need to work this anger off.